Self Promotion Alert…

So, like… Hi!

I know we’ve all been very, ummm, not here recently which sucks. We do apologise about that. Lots of work things have come up and I find it hard to be motivated to do much when I’m tired (and I’m still technically ill and probably dying of something nasty but too lazy on the one or two days off I have to go see a doctor.)

BUT (and here comes the self promotion bit) something I DO do and now have a Ao3 account to post it to is write trash.

All sorts of trash.

Trashy Trash, Trash with no meaning, Fluffy Trash, Trash with no other name but Trash and just literally everything I write is trash because I can’t write.

I know some of you will wonder how I can write Fanfics and NOT stuff I need to on here. Its kind of soothing to write crap, not so much to put it up online for others to read but its my way of trying to get over myself.

So like… I only have the beginnings of a long boring story set in the Star Wars universe (Goddammit my love for Domhnall Gleeson reached new heights and I needed to create my own character to poke General Hux within a inch of his life) but I do plan on uploading some of my old One Piece stuff (and maybe finish it) as well as my other stuff.

So go give me a read!

http://archiveofourown.org/users/Awerka

Now I shall disappear again. Maybe do some work. Hopefully.

365 Challenge : Third from the top

I’m not really a TV person. It might seem strange but I very rarely bother with the TV. When looking for a TV show I am pretty picky. I need to find something good. Something that would make get me hooked from the get go and excited about the next episode but not only that. It has to feel like it has that magic spark right from the get go.

Very rarely do I ever get that feeling.

I also get bored very easily so if I start second guessing things then I start to go off the show and I’m not very good with catch up so if I miss one thing I never bother with it again.

I prefer books.

365 Challenge : Share the Love

So I said on Twitter that we have failed the challenge but we’ll still continue even though its been failed twice.

Today I need to tell you about another blogger who influenced my online journey….

So boringly I’ll have to tell you about Anna!

365 Challenge : The Social Network

No I don’t get social networking at all. I have a Instagram that I use to see what Anna posts and have never posted a photo on there myself. I run the webpages Twitter account but you can see how much I don’t get it 1. by how small our follower count is and 2. with the news that most of them followed us when Anna took over and she didn’t even put much effort into it because she knows she’d just babble on too long about things that aren’t important!

Lets not get started on Facebook which I 100% don’t have.

Sometimes I think its just too much. When listening on Skype to the guys talk they go on and on about seeing this news on this site and something else on that site, when we all looked at each others home screen on our phone all of theirs were filled with apps that do the same basic thing. When I asked them how many different, unique people they talk to on each site they all said it was basically the same people.I think it just loses its importance in the end. I don’t see the point of it at all. Each one wants to be so different but in the end they are all pretty similar. Just because Twitter has shorter messages or whatever doesn’t stop it being the same old same old.Don’t think I’ll ever “get” social media! Then again its one of our tasks for this year to sort out our social media stuff. So that isn’t really a positive with that in mind!

365 Challenge : Odd Couple

You know what I don’t tidy much but I don’t like mess. We don’t really have anything to clutter up our house and things that we take out we put away straight away.

I don’t think mess makes me feel anything really it just is unneeded. Sometimes we can make a bit of a mess in the bedroom when both working full time and we just tend to throw clothes around the place but it doesn’t really effect us in any way. It all gets picked up.

For us its kind of just like clockwork. Use something, clean it straight after and put it away.

When we have people coming over we’ll tend to go over the place with the hoover, something we don’t do that often if I’m honest, and maybe wipe some things down but that is it.

365 Challenge : Five a Day

If I could have 5 foods delivered to me on a deserted island what would they be?

It doesn’t say whether these are meals or just five actual food stuffs. If its just food things on their own then it would probably be :

Apples
Mars Bars
Snack-a-Jacks
Greek Yoghurt
Walkers Ready Salted Crisps

I would die pretty fast but I’d be in heaven.

If they were meals then I guess I’d live a little longer. I’d still ask for the Apples and the Yogurt though maybe instead of just the Yogurt I’d ask for some fancy fruit do-hickey with Yogurt poured over it.

Plus pizza. Lots and lots of pizza.

Maybe something with bacon?

The thing is I would never think of how to survive I’d just panic and scream the first five things that I’d miss off the top of my head. Who would really sit there and think up the best five things to survive? I mean even if they gave me a chance to reconsider and pointed out that drink would not be included I’d probably still forget something as essential as water as long as you give me my bloody Mars Bars!

I’d be so easy to torture too! Forget the Mars Bars one time and then my life will be over.

I don’t do good with food!

365 Challenge : Trading Places

Have I ever thought of being a woman and what differences would I think I’d experience if I became one for a day?

To be honest in the space of a day you aren’t going to have much of a difference. Maybe less hassle in general personally.

The question was perfectly suited for Anna who is non-binary and would love to have had a long rant about gender so as a gender fluid person I’ll give it a shot.

Two different questions within one. Are we talking about being a female biologically or as in being of the female gender. Its two different things that many people don’t realise and that is where so much confusion over the “other genders” comes from. Biologically its obvious there are two different sexes but it is only humans that have assigned names to them and along with the names then assigned “ways of living.”

That is where the middle ground comes in.

Biologically there would probably be a lot of things you’d notice even in a day being different. A biologically female body has obviously different parts to it then a male one. I doubt it would really be that much to get over the initial shock and in one day the aches and pains of having to get used to said body would never be a problem. Over a longer period of time obvious biologically female functions and the need to get used to the body and difference in build would come into play but not in a day.

If we’re talking about mentally actually BECOMING female as a gender then for me it wouldn’t, again, prove too much difficulty. I’m gender fluid so I’m neither one nor the other but both at the same time, kind of. If anything I think it would come more of a shock for someone like Anna who might be biologically female but mentally is neither.

Then again if this is a thought exercise meant to make males think about what females go through on a day to day business (and vice versa) then again a day isn’t enough to make you notice anything. Over a longer period I might find discrimination when I didn’t before but I doubt I’d notice too much.

Not sure why people get so flustered thinking about being the opposite sex. Other then a few differences biologically the only barriers between the sexes are ones we’ve put there. Just get over it already.

365 Challenge : Judgement Day

If you were to judge your favourite book by its cover, would you still read it?

Ha!

Well I’ve been out all day so I think its nice that I get a nice easy question to easily answer and get this over with.

Yes I would.

In fact the Discworld books my mum owned when I was a kid had such strange covers that it was the reason I stole them and read them in the first place! I always loved the covers, they were jam packed with strange and funny looking things. When I was young I had no idea what any of it meant but the older I got, the more I read them and the more I look I appreciate them even more.

I’ll never judge a book by the cover.

I mean a book, I judge people all the time.

365 Challenge : Deja Vu

Have I ever felt Deja Vu?

Yes but not in the real sense of it.

I feel it a lot when I start talking to proper hard headed fans of things. You can feel it coming. You could be talking about something completely different and suddenly that curve back to the same old same old just comes at you. You can feel yourself on the curve and do your best to put a barricade down but eventually no amount of pushing against that wave will stop it.

Also feel it a lot when you talk to people at work. That sudden feeling of “been here before”.

I don’t think I’ve ever had real Deja Vu though.

In a way I’ve always wondered how it feels. I’ve had others explain it to me, Amanda is pretty sure she’s lived through some events two or even three times, being able to see the results so clearly because she’s known she’s done it before. It amazes me, it also works into my life view that when you die your life is like a loop and you just replay it. I like that whole “your whole life flashes before your eyes, its called living” idea. When you die you just go back to the beginning.

Unfortunately it just never happened for me.

Sad really.

365 Challenge : Idyllic

What does your ideal community look like? How is it organised and how is community life structured? What values does the community share?

Ideal community?

Personally I think the question doesn’t really ask what a ideal COMMUNITY would look like but what you’d love to dictate to other people to make THEM perfect for YOU.

What does it look like?

Well I’m pretty much in some pretty ideal communities already. Or have been. The 2005-2009 Bebo F1 community was wonderful as was the community we made for ourselves after that. The Wrestling community on Tumblr have their moments. I think the one I love the most at the moment is the anime debating community brought together by Twitter User IcebergLuffy. Its the most active I’ve been in a community since about 2010/2011 and is a wonderful community even if I only really contribute to it during the debate on a Saturday (it tends to be posted early Saturday morning but in the US it starts Friday evenings.)

So yeah for a introvert recluse a online community is perfect for me.

I really would like to be more into the communities in general again like I used to be. The problem is with my paranoia when you get burnt once you think it’ll happen 100 times over. The way I left the F1 community I was part of and actually Digital Spy and the Strictly Come Dancing / F1 community on there too has left me feeling pretty down on opening myself up again. Its sad because the communities I’m kind of part of just seem so nice but I kind of clam up the second I look like I’m making a step forward.

Its why I tried and kind of still trying so hard to join a community on WoW which just seems impossible for me.

How is it structured and organised?

It doesn’t matter. Even a online community it doesn’t matter. At the end of the day people need to be left to live their life the way they want to live it. It would suck if people were forced to do things one way for any reason.

Sure we have structure in our life that we have to follow. We HAVE to go school and HAVE to in some way get a job in our adult life and follow the rules of both but we are still individuals that have a choice over certain parts of our life.

If you start trying to structure it for a whole community then it stops being ideal because its just brainwashing people into acting in your perfect way which even if you brainwash people to believe its the “best” way just won’t fit into some peoples way of being.

So no structure or organisation.

Of course if you are talking about smaller things its nice to be online when other people are. Its why I loved the #F1Chat stuff when it was big and being online at the same time to talk about F1, Doctor Who, Strictly Come Dancing, World Cup matches and other things. Obviously if your gaming there needs to be organisation so you are online together at the right times.

The thing that makes me sad is not being online the same time as people to talk about F1. I think having to work Sunday’s started to kill my interest but by the time I stopped working Sunday’s the highlights meant I no longer got to always watch at the same time.

Pah.

What values do we share?

It depends what you mean by values.

If you mean the big ones you’d hope everyone you share this Earth with will live by good ones but I honestly think that people shouldn’t judge others because even if they on the outside seem to have terrible values you really need to talk to them before you truly make your mind up.

The sad thing is people are too busy to react strongly when they disagree that everyone becomes defensive and more often then not people lose the chance to actually get to know each other properly. There are lots of people that have really strange values or opinions that when you get to know them you learn that they aren’t actually as strong into their convictions as they first sounded or else are just nice with dodgy values.